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...I seems today as if I will have to take a step....as a commitment to myself...it seems I cannot remain a child any longer.....governed by the turbulence of my fears and passions.....as if I were helpless and misunderstood....in need of a rescuer....it seems today that I will have to give up clinging to anyone or anything which has lost its meaning.....and face the world on my own terms.....it seems that I must stand independent of all my relationships God, father, mother, husband, friends............true only to the law of my own being...........:((

...A Play

There are moments when one gets sudden insight....or at least what one feels is an insight.....it hit me yesterday....that a good person is as bound by his goodness as a wicked person by his wickedness....for example....lets assume that you are a good person (whatever it means)...and I ask you to murder someone...it will be an almost impossible task.........as Shakespere says.."All the world's a stage, And all the men and women merely players"...now what role is assigned to one is to a very large extent out of our hand....it is a function of our mind..........and our nature......and so...there should be no arrogance attached to being kind, generous etc.... since one merely follow the dictates of one's nature...and there should be no looking down on a murderer, cruel dictator etc....as they follow the dictates of their nature...probably that is why it is said "hate the sin and not the sinner"....now..i am ignoring the role of free will in this argument.....but I increasingly believe that...freedom stretches to the limits of the consiousness....and as it has been established that almost 90% of our mind is unconscious.....anyways...enough gibberish for a day :))